Make Me a Sandwich

...in ListMaker format...

• I have no clue when I noticed SneakerBoy.  It was gradual.
• I do know that it was the roundness of his butt I noticed first though.
• He looked to be no older than 19.
• Then I noticed he had great legs and a nice upper body.
• Still I thought he was young, no need to get all riled up unless it was only to be a quick stockroom encounter.
• Later I noticed he was more than just a nice body and that he had a nice voice.
• But still he couldn't be older than 19 and well, I can't do anything with that.  We couldn't even go to a bar and grab a drink.
• A few weeks ago while talking to one of his coworkers I found out that he was indeed old enough to partake in adult activities.
  
• That was when the school girl crush sprouted.  The green light that signaled I could go ahead and see what could be.
• But my nerves kept getting the better of me when I tried to say just a simple Hi.
• A handful of missed opportunities and a lot of encouragement from all my friends on top of the shock they expressed when they found out how shy I tend to be.
• After not seeing him for a few days, too many missed opportunities, threats from friends and enough signs I finally just asked one of his friendly coworkers if SneakerBoy was available. 
  
• His coworker smiled and said he wasn't sure and that he'd give me his number and I could ask him myself.  His coworker also mentioned that SneakerBoy had mentioned me to him at one point.  Good sign?
• I'm not a talk on the phone person.
• I texted him.
• He said he wasn't sure who I was, but had a pretty good idea.  He agreed to grab a drink or lunch with me.
• The next day at work he walked passed and gave a shy wave.  On his second pass by, there was there was awkwardness and my confidence kind of fell.
• I thought, at some point we'll actually have to talk to one another.
• I later walked passed his place of employment and his coworker stopped and asked if I'd talked to him.
• No.
• He then told me to hold on while he retrieved SneakerBoy, I said don't do that, but it was too late, SneakerBoy spotted me and approached as his coworker exited stage right.
• We chatted...about work.  But it wasn't forced and it was an easy conversation.
• Later via text I suggested a few days to grab a drink, but he was unfortunately for me busy and getting ready to head out of town.
• I haven't heard from or seen him since.
• I'm waiting until after he gets back from out of town before I suggest another date.
• If he's still busy, well then I'm leaving the ball in his court.
• I'm hopeful though.
  

Writing prompt from another blog that I saved eons ago.  The prompt had 10 things, but I couldn't think of 10.

1. Portion control is a big part of weight gain/loss.  Push away from the damn table.  You don't need the super sized fries.

2. God does exist, in some form, man or woman.  I also think that other beings  exist as well.  It can't be just us.  The universe is huge.  And they're pretty smart for staying away from of us this long.  We can be kind of a mess.

3. Just like we're required to have a license to drive, I think we also need a license to procreate or something.  There are so many people out there that really shouldn't have children.  It's kind of scary...and they're going to be our future.  Oy.

4. Only you can make you happy.  It can be difficult, but money only brings temporary happiness and sometimes people just disappoint you, especially when you hold them to ridiculously high standards.

5. There's a song out there that can describe how you're feeling every second of every minute of every day.

I didn't get a new laptop, but I DID break down and get internet from home to use on my old but reliable desktop.  I missed you guys.  I still don't know why the library has vox blocked.  Hmmm...oh well.  It feels good to be back.

I'm also on Twitter now:  http://www.twitter.com/chickenb00

...but it's not my fault. 

My laptop was stolen shortly after Christmas and the only place I can get online really is at the library and for some reason they have Vox blocked.  :(  Hopefully when I get my tax refund I can get me a Dell Mini and I'll be back to listing.  If you really miss me I have a few lists on my MySpace blog:  http://www.myspace.com/filipinomami79 or http://sarcasticremark.blogspot.com.

:)

Crappy-cold-accident-inducing weather. :( Thai food and tea with Les was quite lovely though.

A Saturday AND Sunday off during the holiday season...I'm THAT good. Of course my first day back is a 12 hour day. :( Long and uber boring. [Next Monday will be 13 hours, gotta LOVE those extended mall hours.]

Ugh, what's going on? Why do I feel the need to know what's going on, when it's really none of my business? Stupid girl feelings.

Gotta let go of the things I can't control.

The mall being open until 10PM during the week is DUMB. No one is out that late shopping. Next week maybe. What a waste of payroll and resources. And don't tell me it's extra money in my pocket because I'd get the same amount of hours either way. It just means I won't get home until later.

My Ex's wedding was beautiful. I'm glad that he's found someone. I'm just a wee bit jealous.

"...it's such a sweet memory/baby of you and me/and how we used to be/beautifully young/sometimes I just sit and smile/thinking about you for awhile/wondering how you and I/it's such a sweet memory...you were so funny/had me in stitches/and now any man I date/must make me laugh/kissed me in places...you were so sweet...you saw the good in me/even talked about marrying me/the future we tried to see...would we still have the same chemistry..."

Warm, toasty crocheted hats for sale. Really I'd make them for free if people just provided the yarn, but if someone wants to pay for them, that's fine too. Hey I've got bills today and the extra money ALWAYS helps. 

Watching Common dancing with Ellen makes me want to dance with him. Grab his hand, pull him to the dance floor and dance and laugh and have a good time.

Wow! An order for 100 cards. Seriously? I can dig it. Glad I let Duwayno take those cards to shop them around, even though it was a bit hard to part with them. For those of you who didn't know...I make greeting cards. They're pretty awesome and special.

It's like the opportunities are just falling from the sky. I like it. Gotta make sure I get my ducks in a row and do it right though. Funny thing...I wrote myself a check (recommended from my readings of the Law of Attraction) and things are starting to happen. I need to go back and reread those books. More positive thoughts and positive actions. It really DOES work.

Jerks...sending my settlement via eCheck so I can't go on my mini shopping spree. My coupons better be valid by the time the check clears.

*deep heavy irritated sigh* I don't get why some people are so caught up with appearances. Why is it inappropriate for two friends to have lunch together? Yes, my friend has a significant other, but if the relationship is as secure as he says it is, then what's the problem? It's just lunch. We'll eat and talk, probably talk more about business than anything else. But why is it okay for him to give me a ride home late at night? People can see us leave together and know that he's taking me home, but it's not okay for anyone to see us sitting together having a meal? I don't get it. Can someone please explain why this is inappropriate? One person thinks it could be because he digs me...highly unlikely, but...I am quite charming and beautiful. 

Let go. Let go. Let go.

"...baby let's get closer tonight/grant my last request/and just let me hold you/don't shrug your shoulders/lay down beside me/sure I can't except we're going no where/but one last time let's go there/lay down beside me/I've found that I'm bound/to wander down that lonely road/and I realize all about your lies/but I'm no wiser than the fool I was before/I just want you closer/is that alright/baby let's get closer tonight...tell how can this be wrong/grant my last request/and just let me hold you..."

Why do I keep thinking it's Friday? Christmas needs to go ahead and just come and go so that we can get to New Year's and have the holidays be over.

I think I need to find someone who is anti-Christmas as well and see if they want to go out for Chinese that day or Thai.

Why am I so tired all the time? It seems like I've been feeling like this for the past couple of months. Six hours of sleep used to be fine, now eight or nine hours of sleep isn't even enough. What's going on?

I need a LBD (little black dress). I'm growing into the dressing up phase. Don't get me wrong I still love my t-shirts, hoodies, jeans and sneakers. I'm just liking to occasionally switch things up and surprise people. Get out of the rut and grab some attention.

For it to be winter, my skin still has a lovely tan. I'm usually starting to get quite pasty by now.

My chest and tummy ache when I see/hear information about him that isn't quite to my liking. What is that? Why do I care about him that much?

"...hands down/I'm too proud for love/so with eyes shut/it's you I'm thinking of/but how do we move from A to B/it can't be up to me/cause I don't know/eye to eye/thigh to thigh/I let go/I think I'm a little bit/a little bit/a little bit in love with you/but only if you're a little bit/little bit/little bit/in la la la la love with me...and for you I keep my legs apart/and forget about my tainted heart/and I will never ever be the first to say it/but still game over/I would do it/ push a button/pull a trigger/climb a mountain/jump off a cliff/cause you know babe/I love I love you a little bit...come here/stay with me/stroke me by the head/I would give anything anything/to have you as my man...little bit/little bit/little bit in love with you/but only if you're a little bit/little bit/little bit in love with me..."

Two weeks notice. I don't think I've ever put in two weeks notice.

Sometimes I think the kid has a crush on me. Either that or he's just really, really nice. Dinner, dessert, etc. and then when I try to return the favor...it's no, no I don't need anything don't worry about me. That and it's been mentioned that when I'm off he talks about me. Oy.

You girls really need to get over your insecurities. I'm not trying to steal your man.

"Well I know I'm getting an iPod and if I'm don't I'm going to be pissed." -bratty teenage girl talking to her mother. Really??? Is that what Christmas is about? I wanted to turn around and smack her. Brat. One of the few reasons I don't celebrate. 

Is Christmas over yet?

"...last Christmas/I gave you my heart/but the very next day/you gave it away/this year to save me from tears/I'll give it to someone special..." I don't know this is my favorite Christmas song, but it is.

Must start working on that goals/affirmations list for the new year. No resolutions. And the winter wish list.

All of a sudden I can't decide what I want for my new ink. *sigh* 

Looking, looking, looking for a kitchen table. Must get one soon so I can get to work.

Wishing, hoping, dreaming...him. A girl can dream can't she. I'm in a sappy love song mood. *hmmph*

"...what would it take/to show you what you mean to me/every word I say/let's you know that you complete me/I'd paint your name in stars/I'd be all that you'd want in life/if given me the chance/I know I'd make the perfect wife/the way I feel about you/is more complex than the words I say/the reason I feel this way/I wanna do for you/it's easy to say I love you/so the truth of my love shall reveal/this feeling I have inside/I wanna do for you/can't you see true love/it's staring you right in your eyes/I've given you so much/your heart I'd never compromise/we've been through all the rights and wrongs in life/together we'll keep getting by/so now it's up to you/I want to be that perfect wife..."

Crappy-cold-accident-inducing weather.  :(  Thai food and tea with Les was quite lovely though.

A Saturday AND Sunday off during the holiday season...I'm THAT good.  Of course my first day back is a 12 hour day.  :(  Long and uber boring. [Next Monday will be 13 hours, gotta LOVE those extended mall hours.]

Ugh, what's going on?  Why do I feel the need to know what's going on, when it's really none of my business?  Stupid girl feelings.

Gotta let go of the things I can't control.

The mall being open until 10PM during the week is DUMB.  No one is out that late shopping.  Next week maybe.  What a waste of payroll and resources.  And don't tell me it's extra money in my pocket because I'd get the same amount of hours either way.  It just means I won't get home until later.

My Ex's wedding was beautiful.  I'm glad that he's found someone.  I'm just a wee bit jealous.

"...it's such a sweet memory/baby of you and me/and how we used to be/beautifully young/sometimes I just sit and smile/thinking about you for awhile/wondering how you and I/it's such a sweet memory...you were so funny/had me in stitches/and now any man I date/must make me laugh/kissed me in places...you were so sweet...you saw the good in me/even talked about marrying me/the future we tried to see...would we still have the same chemistry..."

Warm, toasty crocheted hats for sale.  Really I'd make them for free if people just provided the yarn, but if someone wants to pay for them, that's fine too.  Hey I've got bills today and the extra money ALWAYS helps.  

Watching Common dancing with Ellen makes me want to dance with him.  Grab his hand, pull him to the dance floor and dance and laugh and have a good time.

Wow!  An order for 100 cards.  Seriously?  I can dig it.  Glad I let Duwayno take those cards to shop them around, even though it was a bit hard to part with them.  For those of you who didn't know...I make greeting cards.  They're pretty awesome and special.

It's like the opportunities are just falling from the sky.  I like it.  Gotta make sure I get my ducks in a row and do it right though.  Funny thing...I wrote myself a check (recommended from my readings of the Law of Attraction) and things are starting to happen.  I need to go back and reread those books.  More positive thoughts and positive actions.  It really DOES work.

Jerks...sending my settlement via eCheck so I can't go on my mini shopping spree.  My coupons better be valid by the time the check clears.

*deep heavy irritated sigh*  I don't get why some people are so caught up with appearances.  Why is it inappropriate for two friends to have lunch together?  Yes, my friend has a significant other, but if the relationship is as secure as he says it is, then what's the problem?  It's just lunch.  We'll eat and talk, probably talk more about business than anything else.  But why is it okay for him to give me a ride home late at night?  People can see us leave together and know that he's taking me home, but it's not okay for anyone to see us sitting together having a meal?  I don't get it.  Can someone please explain why this is inappropriate?  One person thinks it could be because he digs me...highly unlikely, but...I am quite charming and beautiful.  

Let go.  Let go.  Let go.

"...baby let's get closer tonight/grant my last request/and just let me hold you/don't shrug your shoulders/lay down beside me/sure I can't except we're going no where/but one last time let's go there/lay down beside me/I've found that I'm bound/to wander down that lonely road/and I realize all about your lies/but I'm no wiser than the fool I was before/I just want you closer/is that alright/baby let's get closer tonight...tell how can this be wrong/grant my last request/and just let me hold you..."

Why do I keep thinking it's Friday?  Christmas needs to go ahead and just come and go so that we can get to New Year's and have the holidays be over.

I think I need to find someone who is anti-Christmas as well and see if they want to go out for Chinese that day or Thai.

Why am I so tired all the time?  It seems like I've been feeling like this for the past couple of months.  Six hours of sleep used to be fine, now eight or nine hours of sleep isn't even enough.  What's going on?

I need a LBD (little black dress).  I'm growing into the dressing up phase.  Don't get me wrong I still love my t-shirts, hoodies, jeans and sneakers.  I'm just liking to occasionally switch things up and surprise people.  Get out of the rut and grab some attention.

For it to be winter, my skin still has a lovely tan.  I'm usually starting to get quite pasty by now.

My chest and tummy ache when I see/hear information about him that isn't quite to my liking.  What is that?  Why do I care about him that much?

"...hands down/I'm too proud for love/so with eyes shut/it's you I'm thinking of/but how do we move from A to B/it can't be up to me/cause I don't know/eye to eye/thigh to thigh/I let go/I think I'm a little bit/a little bit/a little bit in love with you/but only if you're a little bit/little bit/little bit/in la la la la love with me...and for you I keep my legs apart/and forget about my tainted heart/and I will never ever be the first to say it/but still game over/I would do it/ push a button/pull a trigger/climb a mountain/jump off a cliff/cause you know babe/I love I love you a little bit...come here/stay with me/stroke me by the head/I would give anything anything/to have you as my man...little bit/little bit/little bit in love with you/but only if you're a little bit/little bit/little bit in love with me..."

Two weeks notice.  I don't think I've ever put in two weeks notice.

Sometimes I think the kid has a crush on me.  Either that or he's just really, really nice.  Dinner, dessert, etc. and then when I try to return the favor...it's no, no I don't need anything don't worry about me.  That and it's been mentioned that when I'm off he talks about me.  Oy.

You girls really need to get over your insecurities.  I'm not trying to steal your man.

"Well I know I'm getting an iPod and if I'm don't I'm going to be pissed."  -bratty teenage girl talking to her mother.  Really???  Is that what Christmas is about?  I wanted to turn around and smack her.  Brat.  One of the few reasons I don't celebrate.  

Is Christmas over yet?

"...last Christmas/I gave you my heart/but the very next day/you gave it away/this year to save me from tears/I'll give it to someone special..." I don't know this is my favorite Christmas song, but it is.

Must start working on that goals/affirmations list for the new year.  No resolutions.  And the winter wish list.

All of a sudden I can't decide what I want for my new ink.  *sigh*  

Looking, looking, looking for a kitchen table.  Must get one soon so I can get to work.

Wishing, hoping, dreaming...him.  A girl can dream can't she.  I'm in a sappy love song mood.  *hmmph*

"...what would it take/to show you what you mean to me/every word I say/let's you know that you complete me/I'd paint your name in stars/I'd be all that you'd want in life/if given me the chance/I know I'd make the perfect wife/the way I feel about you/is more complex than the words I say/the reason I feel this way/I wanna do for you/it's easy to say I love you/so the truth of my love shall reveal/this feeling I have inside/I wanna do for you/can't you see true love/it's staring you right in your eyes/I've given you so much/your heart I'd never compromise/we've been through all the rights and wrongs in life/together we'll keep getting by/so now it's up to you/I want to be that perfect wife..."

I apologize for the lack of lists.  I couldn't log onto this site from the library because it's blocked.  I do have a couple of lists on my MySpace blog though.

1. TheFireFighter SAYS he wants to see me and take me out for pizza.  Right.  [I let him stop by, we did NOT go out for pizza.]
2. Mmmmm...warm, toasty, heat paid apartment.
3. Fucking smokers.  This is my air too.  Quit polluting it.  Why is my downstairs neighbor's smoke some how filling into MY apartment.  Blech.
4. I'm kinda shitty with him right now.  He's probably really busy, but I'm still shitty with him.
5. Looong ass work day AND it seems I've already offended one of my new coworkers at my new job.  You say curvy, I say hippy.  Get over it.
6. Hi, my name is Stephanie (Melissa's alter ego) I'm nice and kind of slutty.  [Yeah, I don't know.  I think I looked pretty damn good though.  Boobs all out.]
7. Boo at not having the shoes I ordered in stock, but still available for order online. :(
   
8. Yay for Chewy Lemonheads and Friends.
9. Woo hoo for three days off in a row. [It turned into two days so I could train at job 2.]
10. It's time for crocheting.  Gimme yarn.
11. I'm not sure how long I'm gonna do this phone as a modem thing.  The connection kind of sucks and it's REALLY slow.  I need speed.
12. I feel like such an ass.  That is NOT my grandfather's name, it's my uncle's.  Stupid security question.
13. Waking up every morning with my back in pain and hurting is NOT cool. 
    
14. Yeah, I think that crush is over.  Too many things I can see that aren't particularly my cup of tea.
    
15. FUCK!  Abnormal test results mean I must go back for more testing.  :(  Me no likey the hospital and it's not where I want to spend any of my two days off.
16. Vote!  Vote!  Vote!  I voted two weeks ago.  So glad I did that.
17. Go out tonight or don't go out tonight?  I think I shall stay in and rest up.  The holiday season is upon us and I have things to make and do.
18. SHUT THE FUCK UP.  I really wish I could poke my neighbor with a stick.  All that damn yelling and screaming. 
    
19. I want to be lazy on my days off.  Anyone want to come do my laundry for me.  I won't make you wash my unmentionables.
20. "...I'm realizing more and more that I'm less interested in sex for the sake of sex and more interested in the intimacy of having sex with someone that I have an emotional connection to."  Yeah, that's kind of how I'm starting to feel.  There are days when sometimes all I want to do is the dirty, but there seem to be a lot more days where I want to be held and cuddled and wake up next to someone I connect with and then do the dirty.  Does that come with age?
21. It seems like open marriages/relationships keep coming up on talk shows and blogs lately.  And while I don't think I'm a jealous person, I'm not sure how I feel about sharing.  Although I can't imagine just being with one person. 
    
22. Anyone want to cuddle with me tonight?
    

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