I saw TheFireFighter briefly today. Still looks good. I love when he wears his glasses.
He's not diggin my red hair. Too bad, it's staying.
One person scheduled for Jan. 5th so far.
Moving and shaking.
Thanks for calling just to let me know you hadn't been blowing me off. I really do appreciate it.
His gesture actually made me cry. Simple phone call for something small and my fam can't even text or pick up the phone for something big.
It's like I'm the redheaded stepchild or something. Forgotten and unimportant.
These are the days I don't like my family and tend to love my friends.
When I have children, I'm still not going to celebrate Christmas.
Just another day off.
Hardee's makes for a lovely anti-Christmas meal.
Please don't assume I speak Spanish and start speaking to me in Spanish like I'm going to understand you. All you're going to get is a blank stare and a "huh?"
I was quite sure how we were going to be received at the venue in which Nick was spinning last night. I felt quite uncomfortable at first.
That muffin top was...*shudders*
You could tell he couldn't quite tell who he wanted to hit on so he told us we both had beautiful hair.
*laughs*
You've got to love when a IPD slows down on the interstate because there's a car on the side of the road with his emergency lights on only to NOT stop and see if there's anything wrong but instead speeds back up and continues on his merry way. The car was NOT empty...dude looked like he might have been trying to call someone for help. Good ol' IPD.
Kiva loans that change lives...
Broke and all I want to do is help other people. I'm putting my pennies together to make my contribution.
Gimme yarn.
Gimme books.
Gimme money.
Gimme, gimme, gimme...
WEDNESDAY
Sadly I don't remember much of what happened today. I spent the afternoon in the library and then worked until 1:30 in the morning. I hate sale sets.
I returned two books to the library and somehow ended up leaving with four after telling myself I could only check out two since I only returned two. Yeah, I'm a nerd.
My effin' knee has been really sore the past couple of days. Work is not helping any. I need a good knee massage...any volunteers?
It's not even pay day yet and I'm already broke.
*deep heavy sigh*
What am I going to do?
HELP!!!
All these beautiful attractive men walking around the mall...it always gets like this during the holidays...shopping for the ladies in their lives. How about you make me your lady?
*laughs*
THURSDAY
That was the weirdest effin' dream I've had in awhile. I wonder what it means.
How is one person so effin' messy??? I hate cleaning up after people who are capable of cleaning up after themselves. Is it THAT hard to empty the dishwasher and then put your dirty dishes in it??? And do you have to leave all your shit laying around the house? Yes, yes I know it's your apartment...but still...is this really how you live?
Brookinz introduced me as "Pimpin". *laughs* I have no clue. I must be slippin on my pimpin.
I can't wait until I can have family days. Me, my future sweetie and little one spending the day together at the park/mall/museum.
Why in the world if I don't like being around children...especially in large groups...would I want to go to the Children's Museum???
I guess I'm just crazy like that. But finally after two years I made it over there.
Dang crumb snatchers...where are your parents?
I don't want to work on Saturday, but the hours will help make for a fat paycheck.
A week later and he still got me thinking about him.
Glad you liked the cards home skillet.
These pants are mucho comfy...wish I could afford another pair.
*deep heavy sigh*
*barfs* I shouldn't have eaten that pizza. VERY bad choice. I wasn't really hungry...just a little bored. NOT one of my better ideas.
FRIDAY
I wish the first thing I didn't see on the sidewalk on my way to work was not a dead black lab puppy with it's guts hanging out. I can't get the image out of my head.
"...all I wanna do is spend the night with you...put your mind at ease...just like a lullaby, just like a lullaby...and baby if you just give me your trust...I'll shower you with love...til you fall fast asleep...just like a lullaby, just like a lullaby..."
What is the protocol when you see someone who you know through a friend (but have never been introduced to them, you just see them out and online)? Do you say hi? I wanted to say hi, but didn't want to seem crazy like how do you know me.
I guess you just go by the vibe they give you. (I spoke with one person, but the other I didn't.)
*shrugs*
Why did my dad JUST tell me that he's been in the hospital for the past almost three weeks? Why couldn't my brother call and let me know that ish back when he went into the hospital?
His heart...again. But under control now. Maybe I should move back to Germany.
I don't know. I did it before and have no idea what happened those three years.
Why did my friend just tell me that if I wasn't so damn sexy men wouldn't flip out like ThePsycho did and that maybe I should just be ugly???
I'm sorry, I like being soft and sexy.
Time to go home and relax and come up with schemes to make cash money.
Later.
Notice to ALL Future Boyfriends...a little information guide to help make our time together more pleasant.
1. I WILL want sex more than you. More often than not you'll turn me down more than I will you. I'll probably be more ready and willing than you can handle. This will irritate me at times.
2. I have the tendency to be an insensitive jackass. I'm working on it. Words will come out of my mouth that are not intended for anyone's ears. I might actually mean them, but they still aren't always meant to be heard.
3. I need space when I sleep. That doesn't mean I don't like to cuddle, I don't mind it for a little while...but when it's time for sleep and all that body heat is making me hot and sweaty I need some space and the cool side of the pillow.
4. I have A LOT of male friends. They are JUST friends. If you can't handle that...bye.
5. I am not that open with my feelings until I feel I can trust you enough with them. I don't like being vulnerable. In time I'll open up.
6. My friends are an important part of my life. They were here before you...there will be times when I put them ahead of you.
7. I'm quiet and I like quiet. Excessive noise pisses me off...especially music that's not my own.
8. I'm always on time...if not early. I drives me crazy when people are late, especially when they have no good excuse. It's a sure fire way to piss me off.
9. I like to learn about the things that make you tick and that you enjoy and are passionate about. Teach me.
10. I like the idea of lingerie, but think tanks and boy shorts are sexier.
11. I love to cook and experiment in the kitchen, but the dishes afterwards are my enemy as is the trash. Mucho brownie points if you wash the dishes and take out the trash for me without me ever mentioning it.
12. I REALLY appreciate the little things...back rubs...cuddling...holding hands.
13. Hitting and teasing are my way of showing affection. Hugs and kisses are too.
14. I will buy you things. Little things that make me think about you and that I think you'll appreciate.
15. I'm eclectic and creative and will sometimes appear as if I'm not all there.
16. I'm a bit of a organized neat freak...even when I'm messy I try to be neat and organized.
17. Sometimes I like to listen mainstream music even though I know it's bad. I can't help myself sometimes.
18. Everybody poops, everybody farts, everybody etc. It doesn't bother me, it's human...but if it's gonna stink warn me and if it stinks light a match.
19. I don't like people. I have the tendency to be quiet and shy at gatherings. I'll warm up eventually...just don't ditch me for hours at a time.
20. I can be quite perverted at times. I'm still a lady though and expect to be treated as one.
21. I'm quite adventurous in bed and in life. Let's have lots of fun.
22. I am intelligent. Just a little slow at times. I take pleasure in learning.
23. I do not have a good relationship with my mother and brother. I don't like to talk about them. The incidents that occurred between them and me may affect our relationship. I'm working on getting past it. Please be patient.
24. I act tough, but I'm really a thoughtful and caring person at heart. I love and crave affection. I'm touched by the little things, like forehead kisses.
25. I'm easily entertained. Give me a piece of paper...maybe a pen too and I'll be good for a while.
MONDAY
Still thinking about him.
It's so cold. I don't want to go outside today.
Why do my tights come all the way up to my boobs and still have extra at the feet?
Getting dressed for the winter sucks ass. I prefer to wear less clothes at all times.
Melissa: 1, Slippery Ice: 0.
Boss Lady: I'm sorry, I'm gonna have to violate your wife here for a second.
Husband: It's okay, I violated her last night.
*rolls on floor laughing*
I *heart* customers who have a good sense of humor. Especially when it comes to bra fittings and such.
Worky, work, work, work....thinks about him...worky, work, work, work.
I really AM starting to get tired of this damn Christmas music.
*sings to the tune of One Night Only* ...one nut only...one nut only...you get one nut only...
We're going to have to discuss that next time.
I love the library. Why do I have to be such a nerd?
Yes I can say I love inanimate objects, but people...not so much.
I's tired.
*yawns*
Ugh...my effin' knee still hurts. Stupid knee.
"...she's a maniac...maniac...oh whoa whoa..."
Random.
TUESDAY
Still cold. Still thinking about him. I wonder how long this is going to go on for. Ugh.
I don't like when he doesn't respond to my text messages. Come on...give me something.
Pretty lame work day.
*makes faces at all the holiday shoppers*
You really can't take me shopping. Too many effin' people.
I should've AT LEAST asked for the guy's name at Bed, Bath and Beyond. He was good looking enough to take home. Nice smile too. Must learn to be less shy.
I have mucho fear of of rejection. By not taking the chance I avoid it.
Teaching myself yet another hobby. I really need to focus on the other stuff on my plate at the moment. But then again I wouldn't be me if I didn't have my hand in everything I could get it in.
In Michaels:
Me: "MARGO"
*pauses...waits*
Roommate: "PAULA"
I get lost easily. Most people entertain me by yelling back Polo (or now Paula) when I'm lost.
I get lost easily...
Note to self: Don't play with the leftover coffee beans at the store...the oils will be ingrained into your skin for too long.
I'm glad it's warming up a bit. I can deal with 41 degrees.
As beautiful as some may think I am...as intelligent and educated as I may be...as creative and talented as I am...there are still people out there who will find me unacceptable because of my less desirable but fixable qualities. No I don't have a car and I don't CURRENTLY live by myself and I don't have the BEST job...so what...their loss.
"...This how I feel when I'm around you...sky would fall without you...heaven's lost without you...and it's gone be alright...when I'm around you...sky would fall without you...heaven's lost without you...and it's gone be alright...I'm reminded of my first crush...the wobble in my knees, first touch...summer love ice cream cone...nights shared with you...nights spent alone...butterflies, first love...sweaty palms embracing a first hug...I'm moved to say in thought of you...I can't imagine living life without you..."
Thursday
WTF? ThePsycho's immature self threatened me yet again. And now he's trying to plead his case AGAIN...I wish I could post this IM...well I could, but really I don't want to put his ish out there like that. Let's just say I feel like I'm chatting with an irrational woman (because yes, I know I've sounded like this before).
Seriously though...he doesn't know who he's effin with.
I find the whole situation ridiculously funny. And FlashDance is right, I am quite non-chalant about the whole thing. Best believe though that I will be giving his information to several sources just in case something happens.
So this is what it's like to have someone create drama in your life.
I *heart* the new Central Library.
I could've spent the WHOLE day there.
A big juicy steak would be really good right now.
I'm still quite lonely...and quite broke.
*deep heavy sigh*
But still hopeful.
How is it I'm still hopeful that there's someone out there for me after shit like ThePsycho happens?
Retail holiday season SUCKS ASS!!!
I want to be kissed and cuddled.
Friday
I want deeply for him to just hold me and let me just be. I'm doubtful it will ever happen...but can still hope.
I'm BROKE! Like for real broke.
Momma needs a new hustle.
Suck it up and come to work. You'll survive, you're not dying. People are depending on you.
I don't want to work my on call tomorrow, but damn it I can use the money.
I don't like my new bras...why can't my old ones come in bigger sizes.
Stupid bras.
That jacket at Aero looked good on me. *deep heavy sigh* Need more money.
Anyone need any cards or hats or scarves??? I'm quite creative and talented...and I can use the money.
I still want a big juicy steak. I'm thinking it'll have to wait until next week though when I get paid.
I find that lately I'm very laidback/non-chalant about a lot of things lately. It's not that I don't care, it just seems like it's not that big of a deal. *shrugs*
I haven't seen him in over a month. I wish we could just sit and have a cup of tea/hot cocoa together and talk. [*laughs* see text below]
Work and come home. *yawns* I has no life.
"Tee hee..." I know what that text means. Why can't you just say what you want? Bring your self down here ASAP.
Saturday
Ooo boy you are looking so damn sexy tonight. Why you gotta do me like that?
Actually I probably wouldn't mind having your baby...but uh...not like that.
I'm thankful we were able to spend some time together. I wasn't sure how things would work out after I told you how I felt. I'm glad we can still spend time together like this. I just wish it was more often.
I DO NOT have an Indianapolis accent.
Thanks for switching places with me...two hours of sleep wasn't much, but was a whole lot better than the none I was getting.
It's been so long since I've shared my bed with someone. I quite enjoy my space, but it was nice to have him there.
I know you're just giving me a hard time so that I'll get my act in gear. It does help. But your little jabs hurt sometimes. I'm more sensitive than you might think I am.
It's snowing.
You'll never have to force me to give you hug. I'd let you hold me for hours.
What??? I'm cheating on you because I went out on a date?
TheFireFighter is trippin'. I'm not his.
You definitely won't be finding out about last night/this morning. And how can you ask such a question?
*sigh*
No worky for me today. I could've used the hours...but having to trek through the snow would've been a bitch after.
I NEED internets.
A wasted day. I need to prioritize and be more productive with my time off. No internets, but many other things I could be doing.
Like all those lovely crochet projects.
Ugh.
Sunday
"Fear is like a wound within our emotions. You heal a fear much like you heal a cut on your hand. If you ignore a cut on your hand, it will get infected. But it will heal itself if you pay attention to it and give it time."
*deep heavy sigh*
I can't stop thinking about him.
Today would be a lovely day to have a snowball fight and then curl up on the couch with each other and enjoy hot cocoa and each other's company.
*deep heavy sigh*
Today WILL BE a productive day: laundry, crochet, cards, writing, etc.
I'm hungry.
How can I earn some extra money that doesn't involve anything illegal???
Ugh...there's no talking to TheFireFighter sometimes. I'm not sure why I bother.
MUST FOCUS.
I'm not looking forward to having to go out in the snow tomorrow.
"...at least we can try...but here's what we gonna do...cause I understand you...let's make out just one more time...I will wait on you my dear...even if it takes one thousand years...I believe that love will see us through...but for right now here's what we gon' do...forever i will wait on you...and I hope you feel like I do...it's so hard for me to wear my watch...because all I hear is tick and tock...
I could spend every night with him. It seems crazy that some people make you want to do things you normally wouldn't do.
What is that?
FlashDance will be back in a week. YAY!!!
I was actually fairly productive today. It feels good. I could be a little more productive, but I think I'm good. Still need to get ready for work tomorrow.
Still can't stop thinking about him.
Pleasuremax. *giggles*
It's more a fear of giving someone my everything and then getting kicked in the teeth than it is a fear of commitment.
So I sent him a message letting him know for the most part how I feel. My horoscope told me to do it. [He didn't respond, I didn't think he would. It's okay though.]
I prefer to write to people in order to manage rejection and emotions and reactions. If someone responds they're not there to see how I react and I can continue to hide my feelings. I can also say exactly how I feel without losing what I'm trying to say. Speaking I get caught up and what I want to say just doesn't come out the way I want it too.
"...it's starts in my soul...and I lose all control...when you kiss my nose...the feelin shows...cause you make me smile...baby just take your time now...holdin me tight..."
I finally replaced my too small fleece jacket with a new warmer fleece of the same brand and size. All for the low price of $12.50. I *heart* Old Navy and their awesome deals. The other jacket was much cuter, but more expensive and definitely NOT as warm.
Five dollars for an effin' brush...dang it. Although I do like the gel grip handle.
A gallon of milk costs more than a gallon of gas. That just doesn't make sense to me.
Excuse me sir we were supposed to leave five minutes ago...get off the damn phone and do your effin' job. People have places to be.
Dude asked TheFireFighter about me awhile back. WTF? Why? Hmmm...
Okay so yes...last year I was at that point where I didn't think I wanted to be in a serious relationship...but that was last year. Can we drop that already?
Settling down and having kids with TheFireFighter...I never thought that'd EVER come up in any conversation we'd have. That was weird. The thought is nice...but I don't really see it becoming a reality. We both talk a lot of ish.
What he said does make sense about why attached men are attracted to me.
*checking daily thoughts* Yep...still want him.
"...Everything is cool when love is all brand new...cause you're learning me and I'm learning you (it's cool)...cause you're learning me and I'm learning you...girl it's so cool (yeaaah)...talking with you (yeaaah)...it gets better every moment I spend with you...girl you're so nice (nice)...and you so fine (so fine)...plus you're real and that just what I like..."
I'm okay with the way I look. When I look in the mirror at my nekkid self before I hop in the shower I think I look pretty damn good. Sure there are a few things that I wish could be fixed, but I'm still okay with all my bits and pieces.
This up and down weather is starting to drive me a little nutty.
I need new bras...next week can't get here soon enough.
"Question?...can a smile lead to a hello...and a hello lead to a first date and...a first date to a can't wait to do it again...ain't no pressure (no)...can just let love develop...get to know one another...from a sister...to a brother...I'm just wondering...I'm just wondering...if we start as friends...I'm just wondering...if you have a man...I'm just wondering...if I could be around, permanent...how can I get down...is it possible...for you to see...that maybe you and I could be...say it's possible...for you to see that maybe you and I could be...is it possible...to be logical..."
I don't know how it happens sometimes but I know a lot about what's going on around here than I should. And now a lot of stuff is starting to make a lot more sense.
The only girl chillin' with a bunch of boys who all happen to be DJ's. *thinks* I think a majority of my male friends are DJ's or hype men or have their hands in music in one way or another.
My froat hurts. Damn smokers.
That was one of the best back massages and scratches EVER!!! Thanks!
I've noticed my lists are less mopey and sad. Still not chipper and exciting, but at least less depressing.
Even though our situations are quite different there similar at the same time.
Why did I ask for something I really didn't want? Thankfully it was unable to be provided anyway. It's as if someone was looking our for me.
After last nights conversation I shouldn't want him or want to be with him. I should want someone better, because I deserve better. But no I still want him. Why do we always want what's not good for us?
*deep heavy sigh*
"...for you I'd do anything...even if it means I let you go...never know what you mean to me...because I never let my feelings show...but this crush was just a game...now I know that this is very real...the way I feel may not ever change...the fantasy of you with me surreal...what am I to do...this heart of mine is blue...just can't get over you...how can I move of on...with the thought of you so strong...just can't get over you...cause every now and then I think I'm crazy...even to ever try to make you mine...can't you see this is killing me...to know that deep down inside I'm not your kind...silly dreams lead me right to you...where you hold me tight...treat me right...love me like you love...love to be loved...want to be loved...my one and only me...I just can't get...tell me how...just can't get...what am I to do...this hear of mine is blue...I'm interested in being with you...sure I know you think that I dear might be foolish too...ever try...why oh why...just can't get...over you...cause every now and then I think I'm crazy...what am I to do...I love you...I want you...don't you want me...I can't live without you...oh what am I do to..."
Him helping and encouraging me just makes me want him more. Could we have a strictly business relationship? Why not?
How is it that music has the keen ability to express exactly how you're feeling at any given moment? Who's queuing up my iPod like that?
Oops...wrong color. Dang it...that would happen when I'm all geeked about it and now I have to wait another day.
I want to be adored.
Why do I attract men that are already attached in one way or another? Am I giving off some sort of come hit on me if your married/engaged/in a serious relationship vibe? Why did a friend of mine tell me that I'm that one girl he'd cheat on his girlfriend (if he had one) with? Why am I THAT girl? I'm not the girl to be sneaking around with.
I deserve to be No. 1. Give that No. 2 spot to someone else.
I'm thankful for a last minute invitation to dinner and being able to spend the day with friends.
Did he REALLY call on Thanksgiving of ALL days? I'm glad I was out. If I had spent the day at home alone who knows what could've happened.
I DO say some mean shit when NotInterested is trying to be sweet/nice to me. But really I do it on purpose. I don't want him to get attached, but I think he might already be.
*shakes head*
I know being mean is my way of keeping people at arms length and not letting them get close. Protecting myself so to speak. Unfortunately I sometimes say mean things unintentionally to friends as well.
I have to work on that.
Wow now they have a game where you have to pack the trunk of the car before it explodes...can't we come up with something more creative than that?
I need to learn to be more aggressive when I'm wronged. Maybe I can't be an asshole when it comes to retail shit because I work retail.
Not a lot of listing worthy things going on lately. Just the beginning of the holidays.
*sigh*
Me no likey the holidays...everyone wants/expects something from you. That's why I choose not to celebrate. Let me sleep until after Christmas.
I'm regretting this new 'do just a bit. I'll get over it eventually though.
Holiday depression is about to set in. What can we do to fight it this year?
Festivus for the rest of us.
The Budget starts today.
He refers to her as his "friend". It's actually kind of funny that he refers to her in that manner. She's got to be more than that to him if he spent the holiday at her mother's house with her and is going out of state with her to her work's holiday party. I mean seriously.
He's making this easy...yet still so hard.
Why do people wait to start a family or meet someone or settle down? I'm not waiting for things to be just right to have a child or meet someone. It'll happen when it happens. If it's in the middle of me starting my business...oh well. Maybe that's when it's supposed to happen. Why wait and put it off? What if there never is a right time?
*deep heavy sigh*
A lot of sighing going on lately. I REALLY need to get on my ish and make some changes. And I need to stop saying I'm going to do things and actually DO them.
I have a make shift planner and it's helping...but I have a long way to go.
So I sucked it up and called him and I've come to think that he doesn't answer most of my text messages because he'd rather I just pick up the phone and call. At least that was the subtle hint I think I picked up from our conversation.
MsJackson will be in town next week for Thanksgiving. I haven't seen her since we've graduated from high school. It should be a good time. This is how small the world is...we went to high school together in GERMANY and then she went to college with TheFireFighter in Muncie.
Seems fatherhood is already taking it's toll on TheBestFriend's sleep.
Possibility of two new clients. Good things are indeed coming.
I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love. -Carrie Bradshaw
Enough said.
The sun is trying to fight it's way through the clouds. Come on sun...you can do it.
I feel a lot more relaxed these days.
Must start working on a budget and a plan.
"if it were up to me i'll see you every day." That SOUNDS so very sweet and of course he'd say that after he tells me all week he's coming to see me and then at the last minute can't. All part of the game I guess. Oh well...I'll see him when I see him. He ain't in the top spot anyway.
I need to stop focusing on wanting him and work on what what I want for me. Does that make sense?
Even though we just made a pact. Forty-five days...we didn't discuss consequences of not completing said pact. I guess it's just motivation. I'm pretty sure he has an idea that I'm attracted to him. I think it's pretty damn obvious.
Spontaneous change of physical appearance. You'll just have to see. I had to do something.
"...to be honest from where I'm sittin...it don't look like you gettin back what you givin...you need to be gettin collar bone kissin, turquoise tiffany box with a ribbon..."
I could do for some collar bone kissin right about now. A trail across my back would nice as well.
Interview No. 1 = position has been filled. Bastards said they'd call either way and did they? Nope.
Reason No. 34562 I need to get my license and a car: Having to ride the bus with those who are unwashed. *throws up in mouth a little bit*
FUCK, I don't like me very much right now. I done ACCIDENTLY deleted all my unlocked text messages. I had some lovely intimate messages that were always good pick me ups. I have to learn to be more careful when I'm deleting texts. Or quit playing around with my phone when I'm at work. That'll teach me.
Thirteen and already a 42F. Poor girl. I'm glad I didn't have all this boobage until I got older. I wouldn't have known what to do with it all when I was younger.
I got fired twice today. Once before I even clocked in and the second time after I was already off. *laughs* Me and my smart mouth. *shrugs* Oh well.
Of course now that I have the nerves to call him, he would be on the phone. No leaving of voicemail though. I wonder if he'll call back. [He didn't, but I ended up calling him after a few texts. An hour plus later and I still want him even though it's pretty clear that it won't be much more than friends with benefits.]
I always find myself wanting to tell him way more than I should. And sometimes I do end up telling him things I probably shouldn't. I guess he can't fault me for not expressing myself.
"...Nobody wants to be alone...If you're touched by the words in this song...then baby...you got, you got it bad...when you're on the phone...hang up and you call right back...you got, you got it bad...if you miss a day without your friend...your whole life's off track...you know you git bad when you're stuck in the house...you don't wanna have fun...it's all you think about...you got it bad when you're out with someone...but you keep thinkin' bout somebody else..."
1. New spectacles.
2. My own one bedroom apartment. (Two would be nice, but one will do.)
3. Job that helps pay the bills.
4. Small successes in life, business and relationships.
5. Time well spent with friends over half price martinis, Yats, hookah or hot cocoa.
6. Laceless camo Chucks.
7. Pedi.
8. New cell phone.
9. More satisfying sex, less frustration.
10. Endless supply of simple kisses.
11. Vacation to Chicago, New York, Tucson, Milwaukee and Las Vegas.
12. Acceptance.
13. Cuddling during the cold winter months that carries into the spring, summer, fall and back around into next winter.
14. Funky winter jacket and funky, sexy heels.
15. Weekend spent with him.
16. Thoughtful date.
17. More independence.
18. Tasty treat from Panera Bread.
19. Productive alone time.
20. Creamy, soft yarn for hats and scarves.
21. Winning lottery ticket. (It could happen.)
22. Children's Museum adventure.
23. Back massage and scratch.
24. Date at Maggiano's.
25. Learning to knit.
26. Playful snowball fight with him followed by hot cocoa and cuddling.
27. Freedom.
28. Sparkly goodies from For Love 21.
